One of the best ways to ensure a deepening friendship with God is to have a heart that wants to obey Him.... As you grow in your friendship with God, never forget that your relationship is based on who He is and not on what He can do for you. Keep seeking His presence, not His presents; keep seeking His face and not His hand. You must know that one of the hindrances to a vibrant, maturing friendship with God is allowing ourselves to focus on the benefit of friendship wit God instead of focusing on His as our friend... - Joyce Meyer.
after ''resting'' for too long, i decide to leave my bed far away.
but i got nothing to talk about yah so i went to find some quiz to do..
haha.
and i modify some of the question, hahaha.
Can you answer 35 question on your first friend?
1) What's he/her full name?
for secondary school, is Tan Li Khoon lar..
2) Does he or she have a gf/bf?
nononono, she not ready yet. haha
3) Do you know a secret about him/her?
eh, ahaha.
4) How old is the person?
she will be twenty one in around 4 months time.
5) Has he/her ever cooked for her?
yeah. last time when i go her house which is super rare.. she cooked fried luncheon meat and a kind of veggie call ''dou miao''. super nice sia! and white rice :D
and last last last last last mission trip, she cooked fishball soup for me.
WOO.
and fried noodle, not cook for me but we cook together for a brigade event last time.
when we are still girls.
6) Is this person older than you?
yah, six months older!
7) When was the last time you thought about him/her?
hmm, should be now right? haha cause i am talking about her.
8) Are you really close to him/her?
uhmp, let me think about it:D
9) Do you have a nickname for each other?
WOW.
she call me lao huang lor..
10) Do you think he/she will repost this?
hmm i don't think so eh, she say she don't read people blog. WAHA.
11) Could you live with this person?
hmm.. haha i think abit hard eh. cause both our voice very loud, if we raise our voice abit louder, we like shouting. haha if we work in the same ward, i already think very hard liao.. hahaha.
12) (is a question that i dunnoe how to modify so skip. haha)
13) How long have you known this person?
hmm since 1 Jan 2001.. haha wow very long eh.
14) Have you ever had a sleep with her?
yah, we went for dunnoe how many camp together eh..
yi camp lar, gb camp, class chalet, when we go eugenia or joys house to stay.
15) If you ever moved away, will you miss this person?
haha yah i guess so
16) Have you ever give this person something?
yah lar, don't give her this thing call ''letter'' because she don't reply. haha give her encouragement card.
17) How well do you know this person?
hmm i don't know eh :D
18) Do you miss him/her?
now ar?
19) Is she/he on drugs?
hmm don't think she is taking any strong medication.. hahaha.
20) Person's shoe size?
hmm i dunnoe the exact size one, i think same as me or smaller :D haha.
21) Have you ever worn this person's clothes?
hmm i think so eh, maybe borrow shirt from her. haha i forget already.
22) Have you and this person made up a hand shake?
huh?
23) Has this person ever seen you dance?
OH YES. we dance together wat. last time gb got this event which is heritage trail, then 10th company got 9 person go and dance.
the song is black and white leh.
24) Have you ever heard this person sing?
yah yah yah, and she always say she sing BETTER than me.
and when people say her, she will say better than lishan.
i admit also lah haha.
25) Do you know this person email password?
dunnoe eh.
26) Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight that lasted more than 2 days?
OH i think so. yah i think have. last time during sec school..
27) Does this person cry alot?
i think as you get older, your tears will drop more easily haha.
cause the tear glands old liao, will wear off easily..
28) Have you met this person's family?
oh yeah..
29) Have you and this person went clubbing?
nononono.
30) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
i thought chocolate will be best but for her, nonononono. maybe go and eat some big feast with her. or go and play swing with her.
31) Do you and this person talk a lot?
eh, measure by wat? haha.
32) Have this person ever yelled at you?
haha we yelled at each other before.
33) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
OH haha. ah we throw table before..
34) Do you love this person?
God say if i love Him i will love His people. yah lar..
35) Do you want to be with him/her forever?
haha is not whether i want or don't want, we will be forever because we have the same Daddy above :D
i almost died from walking to the clinic and back to the clinic even though is not very far.. haha. first day, i still thought i can enjoy my life at home and is not so itchy yet. and i almost died again struggling to sleep at night. sleep one hour then wake up again because of the itch. yah lor like wat jiening say, why chicken pox at this age sia?
mummy specially apply off day to take care of me:D
yah so during the 2 weeks, when ppl are enjoying their holiday, i need to go back alone to pay back the 2 weeks of MC.
then just now when i go to the clinic hor, i think i quite stupid eh. me: issit a female doctor? staff from the clinic: *give me a very shock look* and nod. cause i think the clinic only got female doctor and the doctor name is obvious that is female. haha. then i gave the staff my i/c and say i never come here before..
after awhile, the staff say i got go before in 1997. WOW i think when i am pri 3, when i just moved house. yah cant rmb. the doctor quite cute, very motherly look.
me: got anything i cannot eat ar? doctor: there is 2 set of thinking, one is traditional and one which i am taught.. (then she tell me......) then she went but if ur house got a 60yr old lady, there is no point to start a war over what u can eat and wat u cant.
i just took the anti-itch medicine, pray that the medicine will work powerfully.
doctor: this anti-itch medicine will be a little drowsy.
in my heart, i am like I DUN MIND! I WANT! sleep is a very important part of my life.
it take around 10 days with the medicine i am taking to let the chicken pox all come out then disappear. today is only the 3rd day and i really feel like chopping off my hand, shave my hair, just scratch and don't care. but mum keep emphasize, u cannot scratch hor. will have one hole one hole. :(
got one pop out at my very cute eyebrown. aiyoh.
another funny thing, likhoon is going to eat sakura with cell group ppl on thurs i guess, then she sms me. then i am like.. '' i chicken pox eh, how to go''
last time when i am sick, i can always don't finish my food. cause papa train me and sis from young that we must finish our food. i think more to me lah, cause jiejie very skinny so when she say she is full, papa will like okay. but me hor, cannot. only when i am sick. so sometime i will make sure i make full use of the opportunity :D
me: mummy i got chicken pox before? mummy: dunnoe.. me: huh.. i think i got chicken pox leh.
yah so i dun dare to go hospital today, called my teacher and they went ''HUH, u never had chicken pox before meh''? and ask me go see doctor.
cause is early signs so the doctor say possible chicken pox, to review seven days later and confirmed it. now more is coming up, i scratch 3 and it broke :( cause this morning i din suspect is chicken pox.
then now my head also have liao. do pray for me. pray that i will not scratch.. haha cause itchy eh. then i cannot take it, i can only use sleep to counter it. yah then i quite bothered by something.
my jiejie very cute. me: jiejie help me see if is chicken pox jie: i think so, go away from me.
me: i got chicken pox leh jie: okay lor me: help me buy iweekly. jie: then i need to buy two leh hahahahahaha
okay these are the things i am gonna do: 1. the gb stuff 2. watch hero 2 3. do housework. 4. finish the book that i am reading 5. i wish i can play guitar but my guitar string broke eh.. without anybody touching it. :(
''the photo that papa kept in his drawer...'' - jiejie we don't have family photo eh, i only got me with papa and mama. or me with mama and jiejie or mama, jiejie with papa. haha cause we got 4 person in the house, so surely one person take. hmm that time during jiejie wedding, i should not rush back to camp hor? haha work so hard but only one result seen. but next year i might see more. hmm what is urgent does not it is the most important.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!
when i am young, i always forget papa birthday, i will wish him on 20/8 or 21/8 then he will correct me. or i will ask jiejie, papa birthday is which date ar? i remember i check his i/c once before to confirm the date. haha.. that time when jiejie clear papa room, she found a birthday card i wrote to daddy. he keep it. together with a certificate that i got.
papa, i always believe and know the greatest gift that I can give to you is to tell you the love of Jesus :)
jiejie holding papa.
papa, me, mama, jiejie and bro in law are doing good. like what you say to jiejie and bro in law, need to ''xiang qin xiang ai''. ever since u went to be with our heavenly Father, mama seldom cook. unless she is in morning shift and jiejie is coming home for dinner. i realise you got more power in asking me not to eat maggie mee, haha. we miss you. mama cry easily nowadays, haha me and jiejie is shock. i got try, try to help mama in housework, and try not to increase the volume of my voice. i trying.
we talk about you very often eh, i also. even when we are watching olympics, we know you love to watch this kind of show. when we eat, we will think of you. i believe in our daily life, you are always in our mind. i love to talk to you even though sometime we laugh together for your poor english, but i also like that ar..
we are going to visit popo soon at malaysia, during my 2 weeks attachment break. last time when we go, you always can't go because you need to work. i think when we come back, jiejie will go back to her husband place and stay.. hmm okay i will make mama :) more then :(
me leh, going for attachment soon. i remember the first time when i told you i am going to hospital, you told me to '' hao hao zhuo'' to be a good nurse. and i will share with you the experience i had in the hospital...
i miss you. i miss the food you cook, and giving more meat, more egg, giving me the drumsticks and persuade me to eat tomato, ku gua, banana. i miss the very nice food you brought for me when you end work. i miss the time when we sing ''cha sa bao'' song together. when i say byebye to you and you say byebye to me and we give each other goodbye kiss. then when i come back i will ''PAPA'' and you will make a sound that acknowledge you heard me. i miss to cook porridge or guo tiao soup for you. i won't forget the times you show your love and care for me:) i miss the time that you call me and ask me why i haven come home. cooking for me late at night when you can. i know you don't like me to say ''wait'' when you call me, i got cut down liao. once mummy call me, i fly to her leh.
waking me early in the morning. your ability to wake me up is number one! :D i rmb one time i supposed to wake up at 6am. (i sleeping..) mama: shan ar, wake up liao (still sleeping) mama: ur papa call u to wake up. (heard but still sleeping..) mama: SHAN AR.. (still sleeping) papa: shan oi.. IMMEDIATELY jump out of my bed . me: ORH, wake up liao. cool hor.
when i am young, carry me to sleep from sofa to my bed. pouring water for me to drink because i din drink much. asking me to be guai guai.
when i am still using computer at midnight, you will ''shan, still dun want to sleep ar'' then i will ''okok, offing liao''. after awhile ''shan ar.......'' and the time we do exercise together at your bedside.. or dance together while hearing the radio. discussing what we should buy at ntuc with the voucher uncle phua give us :) and telling you how happy i am to receive the voucher from hospital so we can buy pampers. the time when me, you and jiejie compare our height. and when jiejie say i fat, you will say ''no lah, where got'' :D and the time when you support me and let me go missions. the time when we go see the tomato and amazed by how fast they grow, feeding the fish together and getting anxious when the small fish dun eat the food. and you always catch the little insects that fly into the house and throw them outside the window. i miss the time when we watch ''tian long ba pu'' together because nobody watch this kind of show. and when you watch some ancient show, you will explain to me the history. i enjoy the time when you make milo for me and you forget to put sugar. or when you cook maggie mee, and pretend you put the seasoning but in fact u din :) and during o level combined science, giving me chicken essence to drink because i din sleep the whole night. i miss the time when i will write letter on the table to tell you i will be home late or i will eat dinner outside. and when you will call me before you start work to ensure i am home already and tell me you cooked dinner.
that day i went to the stall where we always buy fish soup for you. we always buy fish soup, using water and only put fish, tofu and the noodle. after a very long time, the aunty was like asking ''wah you so long din come, papa bu yao eat liao ar?'' hehe then when i order, i told her i want the normal one. not the special order one.
and the many many years of hardwork you put to support the family. on feb 19 2008, ''Today, i understand the feeling of seeing the one you love cry...'' I blog this. that's when your tears flow down. thank you papa for supporting the family despite hardwork, rejection and even when you are sick, you need to work. and papa for always look out for me, putting me and jiejie first place. i know you quit smoking because i got childhood asthsma. i wish i can hug you like how i hug you when i am young, running to the door when you finish work. hugging you even when you are very smelly. laughing together. i miss your smile. and the time when you don't object me and jieje eat kfc and when i eat biscuit and chocolate in front of you, you din scold me but ask me to drink more water and tell me coke is bad for health. i miss the time when we do the ''twist'' sign to each other and when jiejie told me you did '' i love you'' sign to mummy.
so much so much more........
there are times when i am naughty and bu ting huo, when i make you sad and angry. and alot of thing i still haven tell you.. papa hao xiang ni ar... :D
my beautiful jiejie and mei li de mama.
爸爸 我爱你
:) again, you are in God's arms now, safe and no worries. joy and no sorrow. smile and no tears. healthy and no pain. a place where the love is real and everlasting. a place where nothing can destroy. i believe in the promise when one person in the household is saved, the household will be saved. not by sight but by hearing the Word of God. not trust on the situation that i see now but on what God can do. I will put my faith not on what I see, what my feelings tell me, what i hear from others but on what the One above said and promised. God is never late. I believe that mama will also say ''wo xiang xin'' like how papa you did:)
found in my blog :) last year when genia hack into my blog and wished me happy birthday. haha very long liao, i almost forget this slide.
hehe and i thought i should put up here:) hao xiang ni men ar. i love to spend time with your. i can say whatever i want. haha and i can SING~ the photos are really old sia.. but each photo, remind me to thank God:) to meet your, having your as my hao peng you :D people that i am super willing to spend time with. yeah.
we present our final year project 2 weeks ago.. really thank God for my poly friends. won't see them as often, yeah. they are the people that always help me out in school work, tolerate my ''sa jiao'', mood swings and calling the snorlet to wake up. they are the 'poke flute' haha. won't forget the time we spend together... - like watching the jacky chan movie at ard 10am+ - going to yunru house and do project - yunru bringing the injuried bird home - siewling who always want to eat fried chicken - wearing our shirt - meeting at the bus stop. - eating together - surprising yunru n connie on their birthday - celebrating cindy birthday in the toilet (ARGH!:)) - going to 7th floor and sit at the sofa. pretending that we are waiting for teacher but we just want to enjoy the air-con. hmm not that dun haf ''bu kuai le de shi guang''. but yah the happy time are worth it.
before monday, have alot of thing to do and complete. i need God de guidance so i can make correct decision :) yeah. 'NUH VS SGH. hmm nuh is better because is nearer. sgh is better because i always go there. since year 1 eh. need to get used to how nuh system works. wait until i eat at nuh staff canteen then can compare with sgh. nuh better because got du yi bookshop, if reach earlier can go there and waste time :) sgh better because i take 174 from interchange so sure got seat for me to sit.. if i finish work at 9pm, 963 sure alot of people one. haha even though the journey is quite short. the distance to walk from the bus stop to the hospital, i think is almost the same for both hospital. yeah. nuh got mr.bean, sgh got prima deli. sgh staff toilet got password, nuh dun have. :)
Doing things with excellence means you don't take shortcuts -Joyce Meyer
22 Bondservants, obey in all things your masters according to the flesh, not with eyeservice, as men-pleasers, but in sincerity of heart, fearing God. 23 And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men Col 3:22-23
nursing management, the last paper of my three year nursing life. the last exam paper that i am gonna take:D by God's grace, i survived through the NS 5 exam paper. teacher give very clear clues.. thank God for reminding me and helping me to spell the drug name. and remember the drug for different condition. the word ''thrombolytic'' almost killed me. got one question, supposed to write down what you need to assess for under circulation, i almost forget. prayed:D and i recalled. :D my fridge break down again.. it break down once then my mother friend came and repair.. then it became normal but after a few days it went crazy. last time when it went crazy, the meat turn into black colour(EEEee..) and the prawns all spoilt. this time round, my hotdogs became super disgusting and sister strawberry turn black colour also. haha my mum refused to throw away the hotdog when i am not at home because she want to show me how disgusting it was. only the freezer and the last compartment work now. :D alot of thing spoilt for the past few months....
apart from my laptop adaptor, our house vacum machine said byebye to us after 11 years. haha. not bad eh, the old one better. new one very noisy.
my laptop. (okay, is sister laptop haha) used to be a letter ''L'' when i open. now it can be a horizontal line. haha. and i think that time after showing how ''amazing'' it is to siewling, yunru and adeline. it became worst. to find the 90degree point for it to stand is hard. haha mum ask me can buy superglue and stick anot? :D haha can lah, i will take care of the laptop.
my phone went crazy again, few days ago, while i am on the bus, suddenly 10 msg pop up. and is all one day ago de sms.
the bag which seventh brought for me spoilt also. haha :( sorry. not spoilt lah, hmm i dunnoe what is that thing call but it drop off.. khoon know lah, i tried finding but.. hehe but i will think of creative ways to amend it. dun worry:D
i am going for attachment soon, i pray that God will let me view the patients like how He will see them. for a clear mind to make wise decision. yeah, i will talk more about attachment again.
I am alive for Your glory I am alive to tell Your story For You are
Let Your kingdom come now Let Your will be done in my life Have Your way
I live all for Your glory Your love and Your mercy I am living for Your name
My whole life I am living for You, God My One Love You are the only One I seek I am living for You Only for Your name I am living for You And the glory The glory of Your name
Jesus All that matters is the glory of your name
one cup of milo with few packets of hup seng cream crackles help me survive through the ''battle'' i am fighting. the enemy is NS5.
haha. i will not throw the white towel because of the One above. He gave me strength and the courage.
God's promises and my faith cover all my needs -Reinhard Bonnke
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